While this blog has fallen by the wayside, I figured I wanted to document some of the exciting things happening in our lives. The beginning of married life is only four days away, and I'm fearful that in even ten days I'll have forgotten all the things I've been feeling. This process is something I want to remember, even the ugly days.
Hunter and I went to Mancelona Camp on the seventeenth and arrived home on the twenty-third, just seven short days until the wedding ceremony! Being at camp was such an act of trust in the Lord, and I've been extremely blessed this wedding week to see how God honored that act of trust. While the stress levels have been higher than they were a few weeks ago, they still have been fairly low. Don't get me wrong, I have my moments (just ask Hunter), but it's not as crazy as I thought it was going to be.
This week we've gotten so many big kid things checked off of our list. We signed a lease on our first "house" and got our key! We began moving things in late last night. Both of us are working a little bit this week (gotta make that cash money), so our time to get things done together is very limited. We got our marriage license. There were a few stress inducing setbacks (lost birth certificates...oops), but we picked it up and have it! Hunter and I spent some time in the barn where the reception will be held to clean it up and to hang lights. It was quite an adventure trying to figure out which lights from the previous reception held there worked and which ones didn't, but it was such a cool experience doing it together. It's going to be so beautiful, and I love that we have had such a huge part in making it the way it is. Doing stuff yourself is stressful, but it will be so worth it when we see it all together and know we did that. There's such great ownership in it. We have some last minute crafts to get done (programs, flowers, tic-tac-toe games), but all in all it feels good!
Currently I'm feeling a bit of nervousness and a lot of excitement. I'm nervous about the wedding and being in front of so many people (what if I say the wrong word or something?!) and not knowing what I'm doing (heck, I've never gotten married before!). But I am in no way nervous about marrying Hunter. That's probably the only thing I haven't thought twice about. Marrying him, being his wife, figuring out how we're going to do life together, brings me so. much. excitement. I'm ready to dive right into that, knowing full well that the water will be deep and sometimes all I'll be able to do is tread water.
I've been super big on trying to remind myself: beautiful weddings do not equal a beautiful marriage. Focus on a beautiful marriage. But that doesn't mean I don't want a beautiful wedding! I'm trying to keep remembering, Hunter and my love for each other is what will make this wedding beautiful. Maybe something is going to look as ascetically pleasing as I would like it to, but I'm praying that our love for each other and for our Jesus is what brings true beauty to the place.
Four more days. Four more days until I'm Mrs. Kilpatrick. Four more days until I am officially his and he is officially mine.
Spirit lead [us] where [our] trust is without borders.
